Rylan has opened up on the moment he realised he's "not invincible".
The 33 year old announced his split from Dan Neal in 2021, which led him to take four months off from BBC Radio after "loosing himself". During his time away from the spotlight, Rylan shared he "went away for a bit" to hospital as he "was very… gone."
Now, during a conversation with pal Davina McCall on his podcast Ry-Union, the Strictly It Takes Two presenter has opened up on being "ill" following his separation from Dan.
"I was ill. I was really in a bad way for that four months. It's really strange, because lately I've been thinking about it. It was summer as well," he started before explaining that while people were enjoying the hot weather, he had no phone or social media.
He said: "I wasn't looking at my phone for any other purposes than one thing. I wasn't looking at the news, I had no social media, I'd handed that all over to management. I saw nothing.
"In one respect, that was the best thing for me. In the same respect, I look back now and I do regret how I got, but I couldn't help how I got."
Rylan, who is taking "slow steps" back into dating following his split, went on: "I wished I'd just gone to work. I wish I had the ability to go to work and try and distract myself from what was going on in my life, but I actually couldn't.
"For every hour that passed, it got worse and worse and worse. It took a lot for me to go back to social media but I knew I had to do it, for want of a better term, to feel normal again because it was part of my job and it was part of my life."
Rylan then shared he "eased" himself back into work and social media, before addressing an interview that came out about him that was "very honest".
He originally did the interview to talk about his podcast, but ended up speaking on how he has been doing.
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The presenter said: "The journalist just said something to me and I looked at her in the eyes and said, 'No, I weren't alright.' My makeup artist was there for me very much through the summer and I just saw her look at me, and it was almost like that look of approval. Like don't worry about it. I never thought that something like that would ever happen to me, like that I'd mentally get so bad."
He continued: "But now it has, it doesn't scare me that it can happen again. It just makes me realise that you're not invincible and, whatever life throws at you now, as hard as things might be, I've been there.
"Like you said, you've been there for different reasons with the addiction and stuff like that, once you've been there, you know you've got it in you to never let yourself go that far again because, ultimately, it is you."
Sharing that he's stronger now, Rylan added: "It is you that lets you go there… And as much as I'll have my days where I feel s**t, I then have to realise actually that, where I was was the worst place I could've been. And where I am now, even if I don't feel amazing, it's not there."
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