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Tom Parker\u2019s widow Kelsey has reflected on \u2018really missing\u2019 her late husband as their daughter starts primary school.<\/p>\n
The Wanted singer, who died aged 33, was diagnosed with a grade four brain tumour in 2020 and battled with his illness for almost two years.<\/p>\n
Since his death in March 2022, Kelsey has been open and honest about her experiences with grief and raising their children \u2013 Aurelia, four, and two-year-old Bodhi \u2013 after the death of her life partner.<\/p>\n
On Monday morning she revealed her excitement for her little girl reaching a milestone was tinged with \u2018anger\u2019 over Tom not being there.<\/p>\n
Sharing a fresh-faced selfie on Instagram, Kelsey wore a T-shirt emblazoned with the message: \u2018If you\u2019re having a bad day, just smile. It will make you feel better.\u2019<\/p>\n
It was poignantly attributed to her late husband.<\/p>\n
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Kelsey, who recently revealed she has embraced spirituality following Tom\u2019s death and looks out for signs from him, posted in the caption: \u2018Big day today. I\u2019m so excited for Rae, she\u2019s been ready for school for the last two years \ud83e\udd23<\/p>\n
\u2018I\u2019m so proud of just how ready she is \u2013 confident, aware, happy and inquisitive, I just know that my little sponge is gonna soak up everything she learns and I can\u2019t wait for her to share it with the world (and me at bedtime every night \ud83e\udd23)\u2019<\/p>\n
The mum-of-two continued: \u2018Really missing Tom today. Not even sure it\u2019s sadness today. If I\u2019m honest I\u2019m a bit angry. Had a bit of news over the weekend of another unwanted change in my life and I feel scared and unsure of the future again.<\/p>\n
\u2018I\u2019m being dramatic, it\u2019s nothing big and I know this feeling will pass. I\u2019ve come this far, I\u2019m not about to give up now!\u2019<\/p>\n
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Kelsey went on to admit that she was \u2018a little tired of every joyous moment having that little dark cloud\u2019.<\/p>\n
\u2018But I\u2019m going to the NTA\u2019s tomorrow so I\u2019m sure a little glam will lift my spirits!\u2019 she added.<\/p>\n
\u2018I know I\u2019m so lucky to be continuing these lovely events with amazing people that Tom introduced me to. Just wish he was coming with me \ud83d\udc94.\u2019<\/p>\n
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The influencer then rallied to sign off with a more positive note, writing: \u2018Right, I gotta get up and get this girl ready for her big day \ud83e\udd13\u2019<\/p>\n
Fans and friends rallied Around Kelsey in the comments, with one replying: \u2018You\u2019ve got this Kelsey, this too shall pass.\u2019<\/p>\n
Another added: \u2018You continue to be amazing and an inspiration! Good luck Rae xx\u2019<\/p>\n
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\u2018Sending lots of love, I\u2019ve also got Tom\u2019s t-shirt on today\u2764\ufe0f\u2764\ufe0f,\u2019 shared someone else.<\/p>\n
Kelsey also previously shared that Aurelia likes to use the news of her dad\u2019s death like \u2018a mic drop\u2019, after her mum encouraged her to speak openly about it.<\/p>\n